Nothing Seems To Matter....

Basically all day today, I've just been going through the motions of the various activities I usually do. Am I having fun? Do I find this interesting? Was that funny? Do I even care? The answer to all of those questions is the same: not really. I mean from the stuff I've done today, I've found some degree of emotion will occur. But not very much. Everything seems to have a very small impact on me. Even this journal entry I'm only writing because it is something to do. I know this is probably the lack of interest that comes from having Depression, and on top of that I'm a bit bored nowadays anyway. This is nothing new to me, and it isn't concerning at all. Everything today is just meh. Nothing is breaking me out of this trance-like boredom. Even though my mom told me something that was pretty sad earlier, it didn't faze me much. There are reasons why that may be though. Despite all this, I CAN still enjoy things, but not very much and not for long. This is a bit different than my usual brand of boredom. It's almost as if the boredom itself isn't even trying very hard. So it isn't exactly that I'm bored, but rather that it seems like nothing matters to me today. Winning or losing in a video game, not much of a reaction. Watching funny videos on Youtube, same situation. I'm not even sure if I want anybody to reply to this or not, everything is just "whatever" with me. Maybe if there was a bit more stuff that was new or something, I'd find some more enjoyment. But either way I don't really care. My current mood isn't even bothering me. Whatever happens happens and I just go with it until I vaguely feel like doing a different thing. But every time I think that I want to do something else, I keep asking myself "But what do I want to do?".